It’s Time for the Goddess to be Heard

If you have followed me this past year and a half, you have seen my Goddess series grow, expand and come to life.   It started as a project to reinvigorate my own inner goddess to create with more passion and confidence.   It has now grown beyond my just playing to a series that has become stronger and more powerful.  It has touched and inspired others to hang them on their walls and find a connection to their imagery.

It’s time to take this series deeper into a spiritual, political and empowering level.  The overall climate of today has released anger and uncertainty from not only women but people of all shapes, classes, races and religious backgrounds.   We are experiencing a need for change – YES – but ask yourself is it the right change? Are we forgetting our need for empathy, gratitude, and simple respect?   Can we take time out of our busy lives to think of others before ourselves?   Change is good but not when it facilitates hate, racism, bigotry and misogyny.

Goddess #2 – Work in Progress, 48×48

My Goddess series is moving in this direction.  A direction of change that facilitates a positive environment.  It will empower and encourage everyone to move forward beyond our current climate to a journey of peace, happiness and bringing together a source of positive change.

“She Grooves to Her own Beat” 48×48 acrylic on canvas is the first in a series of 10 paintings that will represent and focus on the female Goddess.  It will bring forward strength, a positive inner self, and our amazing beauty from within. It will get political, it will get religious and it will be powerfully strong in statement.  But it will not spread or share negativity or hatred.  It is my creative contribution to bring goodness back into the framework of our environment.

I am so excited to share this new series and am hoping to bring forth both an online show and a show later this year.   I will be creating limited edition signed prints of the series and possibly a book in the works.  So follow the journey and watch the transformation and growth of my Goddess Series.   It will be an amazing experience.




Expanding Outward, Sharing and Exposing my Inner Self

As this year begins to hurry past me, I try my best to slow down and embrace the smaller things.  I always make a big list of to-dos at the beginning of the year and find my life racing past me before I can even get to the starting point.   But this year will be different (yes it will)   I have launched my first online course (it’s FREE) and secured several solo shows in the coming months.  I have expanded my reach outward to spreading my Creative Souls Art story and plan to offer several new online courses to share with all of you.  A small book is also in the works (I am trying).

Of course, it is alway hard to expose my inner self to everyone out in the world.  My art, my story, my ups and my downs.   It is difficult to keep up with all of the ideas streaming in my mind and making the time to get it ALL done.   I am currently creating a 6-week course designed to invigorate and inspire your creative soul.   Focusing on fun motivating projects that have allowed me to loosen up and let go.   From there I plan to offer many more courses.   I have learned so much from this experience and enjoy sharing (even though I am so critical of myself on camera) my passion with the world.   I am not a perfect artist, and I have so much more to learn on my journey.  But I hope to inspire others to get going on their journey whether its creative or a dream they have been holding on to for years and just don’t have the strength to make it happen.  Let’s work together to let that inner critic know we mean business, and we will get it done. Let’s all nourish our creative souls and tell our inner critic to quiet down so we can move forward.   Follow my journey as I move forward – it is a bumpy ride, but the exhilaration is amazing.



10 Positive Things You Can Do to Add Mindfulness into your Creative Process

We all know that having a positive attitude towards our daily lives encourages a healthy and prosperous lifestyle.   “You are what you eat” but ” you are what you say” can also be communicated towards our inner selves.  What we tell ourselves can completely shape how we make decisions, how we view ourselves and the world around us and how we interact with others.   When we surround ourselves with negative energy, we, unfortunately, absorb this soul drenching intoxication of bad stuff.   Our inner selves can be to blame at times, as it sometimes tells us what we can’t do or how we will fail at things miserably.   But we can work on this and condition our souls to embrace things (even when they seem negative ) in a more positive light.  We can make small adjustments to the way we think, get up in the morning and go about our daily lives.   We can practice mindfulness as a way to tap into our inner self and teach it a lesson on acceptance.   Below are just a few small changes and practices you can make to encourage a positive mindset and allow your present nature to shine.

  1.   Keep a gratitude journal – I am always a fan of documenting your journey and experiences.  Find ways to practice gratitude towards yourself and others and write it down.   What am I thankful for?   How can I help my neighbor?   Can I do one thing a day that benefits someone else and not myself?  Did anyone support me today so that I could get back on my feet?
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – make this journal visual and incorporate collage and beautiful imagery within its creation.
  2.  Get good at being rejected – we have been told “NO” since we were tiny little creatures.  For many of us, this was the word we enjoyed repeating over and over again to the joy of our mother’s ears.   Our first noticeable rejection was probably heart wrenching, and we hid under our covers until we gained enough energy to reemerge.   We will continue to experience rejection in our daily lives so let’s get good at it.  Accept the failure and use it to make you stronger.   Allow it to be just a small road bump towards a more positive and clear road.   We can get good at this and the more failures and rejections we can experience, the better we can get at reaching and maintaining this journey of ours.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – when you find your creativity exposed to rejection, get back up and try again.  Buy a new canvas or a new color of paint and pour that rejection onto the canvas.   Allow those raw feelings to emerge – you might be surprised at the outcome.  You can’t take the rejection from others towards your creativity personally.  It is their opinion.  You can find rejection amongst one viewer and praise from another.   Remember, people see what they want to see and like to be opinionated.  Don’t let that stop you from spreading the story that you want to show off to the world.
  3. Use positive words to describe your life – Again, “we are what we tell ourselves.”   If we say we are amazing – we will be.  If we tell ourselves we “suck” at this – well hate to say it – we will.   Subscribe to the positive path and tell yourself how great you are today.   Wake up in the morning and tell yourself something positive each day.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – put these words into your paintings.  Hide them or let them be bold for all to see.  Try beginning your canvas with positive affirmations and intentions and build your painting around this story.
  4. Notice the good in times of tragedy – when I began my creative journey, I hired a coach to help me organize and plan my path towards creative independence.   She told me to read “A Man’s Search for Meaning” by Holocaust survivor & author Viktor E. Frankl.  The story describes his ultimate survival and hardships in three concentration camps including Auschwitz.  Frankl believed that humans are driven by finding meaning in their lives, and it is this sense of meaning that allows individuals to overcome some of their worst painful experiences.   How can we find happiness when there is so much pain and suffering around us?   We can find meaning in ourselves. Frankl does describe instances in his book about finding the good in the harshest conditions imaginable.   How could he smile when faced with sickness, starvation, and death around him?   He found the good, and this was key to his ultimate survival.  I highly suggest opening yourself up to this mindset.   Tragedy and hardship can vary amongst us, but it is how we choose to overcome it will determine our eventual outcome.   Stay positive, find your meaning and communicate the good in a situation.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – Art is an amazing way to share your experiences without sharing your experiences.   UHH?   You have the ability to tell your story through visual imagery without revealing it’s innermost thoughts to the viewer.  It is up to you whether you want your audience to hear or see the gut-wrenching story behind it.  Or, you can simply keep it to yourself and let your viewer just be inspired by the composition.   In all, when faced with a tragic situation, reach out towards your creativity to help heal it.   The creativity becomes your good, your meaning, and communication.
  5. Have solutions when pointing out problems – it is easy for us to point out the negative in every situation.   But can we work to match a solution to whatever the problem might entail?   If we say this isn’t working, can we provide an idea on how to make it work?   We can talk, complain and tell others how things are just not right, but it is a different story when we “get our hands dirty” and step up and be a part of the solution.   Before we shout out, let’s shout in and provide our audience with a “here is an idea!.”
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – a painting is a problem.  It starts out with several questions, and eventually, we work them all out to become a finished agreed upon masterpiece.   Reach out to your “tribe” and request help to find solutions to your creative problems.   Read books and take a workshop to help you find solutions and answers.  A different perspective can change your process to a whole different light.
  6. Make someone else smile – Smiling is a great way to boost positivity within and towards others.   Do something, one thing a day to make someone else smile.  Bonus points if you do it to a complete stranger.  Take the time to say thank you and ask how is your day?   Step back during your daily routine to just give thanks and provide a positive attitude outwards.  A smile a day keeps the negativity away!
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – sharing your process with others can incorporate thousands of smiles.   Just stepping out and sharing your passion. I have had people say my paintings make them happy.  Well, it’s no surprise, I am happy while I am creating.  My feeling is coming outward towards my viewer.
  7. Breathe – take a moment and recognize your simple but important breath.   We do it all day long and only realize it when we have run up five flights of stairs or rushing to catch that last minute train.   When faced with a negative situation, take a time out to just breathe.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – start off your creative journey with a few deep long breaths.   Take some time to recognize the feeling of it.  Let in the goodness and let go of those things that will get you stuck in this process.  Step back from your painting and just breath for awhile.
  8. Disconnect and reconnect with YOU – we are all tied to our devices. It provides us with up the second news, information, and gossip.   We check our emails constantly because we just might miss something.   We have 24 hours news to cram us with insignificant sound bites.  We are inundated with artificial imagery every second through social media and the thousands of TV channels somehow we think we need.   Take a moment out of your day to disconnect from the constant splurge of information and just reconnect with YOU.  Sit and have a cup of tea, read a book on poetry or take a nice walk amongst nature.   Our minds are being conditioned to go a million miles a minute – stop, slow down and smell the roses.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – try to tune out during your painting session.  Turn off the TV, put away your smartphone and just be one with your canvas, palette, and brush.   Maybe go outside and be creative.  Design your creative space to be able to shut yourself off from the busy fast paced world around you and just spend that time to focus on creating.
  9. Give yourself a pat on the back – it’s ok, give yourself some praise once in awhile.   It’s not gloating – you deserve it!   You do amazing things every day so allow yourself that thank you.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – give yourself some credit in your creative journey.  You have come a long way.  If you are just starting out tell yourself you are doing amazing so far.  We can always improve upon our process, but your growth and putting in the work is an accomplishment in itself – praise it and reward yourself for just putting it out there.  After a painting session, reward yourself with a new paint brush or just a nice warm cup of tea.
  10. Laugh – Laughing is contagious and spreads a positive atmosphere whether we like it or not.   Have a good laugh once in awhile – a really good laugh where you are on the verge of bursting out into tears.   It’s not always insensitive to find something amusing when faced with a negative situation.  Sometimes laughing it off can help your coping mechanisms to recharge and recuperate.
    • How to incorporate into your Creative Process – how about consciously laughing while you paint?  I know it sounds silly, but it might change something on that canvas in a positive way.  Maybe listen to your favorite comedian or listen to an amusing book while you create.

These are just a small portion of positive things we can incorporate into our daily lives and creative process.   I am sure there are thousands more.   But making an effort to chose the positive path instead of falling victim to negativity can significantly change YOU.   If you feel good, you are good.

I Did It!

So it has finally come into being, and I am so crazy proud of myself I just can’t contain my excitement.    If you have read my previous story on this, I had planned to complete this course last year September but had a slight roadblock along the way.   I resolved to start completely over and have never been happier.   So “Artful Inspirations: Floral Abstracts” is finally here – February 1st to be exact will be the day you can access all of the amazing creative soul content.   Sharing my passion and process along with providing inspiration and motivation to approach art in a different way.   I love taking online courses from several artists and have learned so much from seeing their process at work.  This course is everything I have learned along my journey as an artist: from online courses, books, workshops, traveling Europe with an artist group and so much more.   When I decided to leave my 20-year career in finance 2 years ago, it was important to follow on my path as a teacher and guide.   Being blessed to be able to take on this path, it was important to practice good Karma – giving back and sharing.   Being a teacher and sharing my blessings has given me so much happiness and fulfillment in my life and if I can touch just one person in this world with the passionate embrace of my creativity and soul – I have done my job.   If we all did the same – can you imagine how beautiful this world would be?

So check out my new course Artful Inspirations: Floral Abstract – starts February 1st

I offer my very first class free so that I can not only share but give out thanks.   This is only the beginning and I have several exciting courses in the works.   My journey is truly just beginning.  When does your journey start?

Don’t Get Caught Up in the Details

How many times do you see a job description: looking for detailed oriented, multi-faceted worker?   It’s a definition of pretty much every corporate job description and requirement.   It’s actually a good thing to pay attention to detail and focus on the little things in a customer service environment.  However, this mentality becomes ingrained in our psyche.  We tend to focus and dwell on the little details of everything that pertains to our daily lives.   Our focus becomes so great it truly prevents us from going forward through our process, and we become halted, frozen and unable to complete simple tasks.  The tiny details erupt into a bigger context of focus and eventually fear.

I find when I teach, many new creatives bring this mentality to their creative process.   They get caught up in painting a tree with every branch, leaf and small detail associated with it.   They approach a landscape searching for every detail or a mixed media abstract piece mapping out where and when they will apply their marks.   I say, “STOP and let go.”  Forget that you are painting a tree or landscape and replace these mind tricks into just breaking your subjects into simple large shapes.  Don’t think about every blade of grass or fallen leaf on the ground.   You don’t have to paint every grain of sand or every tree in the forest.   Sure there are many artists that painstakingly do this, but YOU DON’T HAVE TO.     A great painting gives the impression that something exists whether it’s a realistic interpretation or completely abstract.  You allow the viewer to visualize the scene.  Giving them the roadmap through color and brushstroke.

Allowing yourself to focus on the bigger picture, allows the anxiety/inner critic to calm itself and you can just focus on creating.    In my pastel and oil landscapes, I will usually start with a quick sketch in burnt sienna of my subject.   I get a big brush and let loose on the canvas, navigating where I want my big shapes to go and emphasizing areas where my darks and my lights will go.   I am just energizing my canvas, getting rid of the blank white screen and creating a simple foundation.   I won’t get into my details til the very end of the painting.   For my abstract paintings, I follow a simple energy activating exercise I learned from a fellow favorite artist, Flora Bowley.   She explains the concept of “activating the canvas”  Allowing quick movement, sound, feeling and whatever feels good at that moment to dictate the beginning.    I love this concept because it allows you to just let it happen and not spend countless hours thinking about what to put on the canvas – you just do it.


However you approach your creative process, I feel the less you think about it the better.   Trusting your process and allowing it to be nourished freely allows your art to bloom outward with feeling and inner soul.     You will occasionally step back and say “did I do that” or “how did this happen.”  Like your favorite TV artist, Bob Ross said, “We don’t make mistakes, just happy little accidents.  You just can’t mess up.  You can cover it up, expand upon your creativity or continue to let it grow.   There will be spots and periods in which you are feeling the flow and areas that just aren’t working.  Encourage yourself to build on what’s working and change those things that are not.   I will leave areas in my oil paintings til the very end because I just can’t seem to get it where it needs to be.   It’s ok.   If I look at the bigger picture those areas will eventually create themselves.

So don’t get caught up in the details, open your heart and let go.  Trust YOUR process and let it happen.   Collect visual imagery of your favorite artists, art, photos, etc. and post these up around your creative space for inspiration.   Remember there are no rules and don’t let anyone – artist or not – tell you otherwise.

Are you interested in learning my process and changing the way you approach your art and creative process? Sign up for my very first online course “Artful Inspirations: Floral Abstracts” to see how I approach my abstract floral series.  Better yet, ITS FREE!!!!!

Sign Up HERE

Pick Yourself Up and Try Again


So I have been having so much fun with my passion sharing that I decided awhile back to take it a bit further and offer online e-courses of my process and exploration in art.  This is taking me outside of my comfort zone since I hate the way I look on camera and I hate the way my voice sounds.  But what the heck, I decided to go for it.    I spent three long, arduous months and effort filming and developing my first online course – Artful Inspirations: Floral Abstract and was ready to launch September 2016.   It was a great accomplishment, I was proud of myself and hoped people would enjoy it.   But when I went to upload my content onto my e-learning site, my hard drive crashed.   I lost everything – all of my files, videos, and content.   I was devastated.  I cried.  I got angry.  I had a complete meltdown.  I worked so hard teaching myself how to edit and film videos and it was all gone.   I was just mortified of the outcome.   To add to the despair, I didn’t have a large amount of money needed to save my data at the time.   It was just too expensive.

What’s a Girl to do?

After I had sobbed uncontrollably for several days, I gave up on my sorrow and decided to start over.    Unfortunately, my launch would have to get pushed back considerably since I had two solo shows coming up and a bunch of teaching opportunities.   This is a good thing!    So now I am here, January 2017 starting over.   I have talked to my inner self and given it a sweet pep talk to just let it go.   It will be ok just pick myself up and start again.

Starting over can lead to a whole new experience

As soon as I hit the record button, I knew something was different.   I had a different sense of freedom.  I had been here before, but now I could DO THIS!    To be honest, I wasn’t a big fan of the painting I was taping in my first videos but now…..  This abstract floral was moving, coming alive and breaking free.   I am having more fun, and I know what I am doing.  So I am currently on a role, creating, exploring and seeing a whole new path.  I am having fun and have let go of my big fail and moved on.

Follow the journey

My Artful Inspiration: Abstract Floral course is FREE and contains two full demos of my process as well as a workbook and a few other goodies.   This is just the beginning – I will be offering more online courses of my process including my popular pastel course, and a bunch of exciting mixed media style courses to invigorate your creative soul.   This is an ongoing work in progress for me, and I welcome you to follow the journey as I grow and expand Creative Souls Art.

I’m Bored, Now What?

So I have been spending the past couple of months preparing for my first solo show of 2017, “Emergence of the Creative Soul.”  It provides a look into my creative soul and creative journey since I decided to take on this artist thing two years ago.   I am showing some of my older pieces, my Goddesses, my floral abstracts, and pastels.  But I was short work, and I needed to get my creative juices in gear to create quick large pieces to adorn the front area of the space.   I didn’t have enough work to fill the space, and I had already said: “Yes I can do this.”    So I got to painting.  I decided to focus on my landscapes in oil – better yet, painting the dusk and dawn – those two times of the day in which I am entranced by its mystery, its intense color, and aura.   Somehow I got into a serious groove and created some real solid pieces.   I was proud of this creative journey, and the show looks amazing.

But what now?

You know when you get into your groove, and everything is just flowing freely, and then after awhile it all becomes dull, uneventful and its just not working?   The feeling becomes numb.  That intense flow has been overdone, and every piece of artwork after that just doesn’t have that same intensity and spirit.    Well, that’s where I am now.   I created six amazing pieces of work, and now I am bored.

So really what now?

When my “serious” work starts getting boring and stale, I need a creative shift.  This is why when you do see my work there is several different styles.  Almost as though a different artist has emerged each time.   I find news ways to reinvigorate that vigor, that excitement within me.   So I start painting intuitively – this is where my abstract florals and my Goddesses were born – from my boredom of painting my landscapes.   Here I can let go, let loose and just be free.   There is no worrying about getting it right.  No worrying about creating a result.  Just allowing myself to create.

So really where am I going now?

So I bought a large canvas (really big)  and just started moving paint around.   I think I see a different direction in my Goddess series.   I can’t put my finger on it as of yet, but it will emerge at some point.   I will let each layer tell its story, and it will come to me, it will finally speak to me.    That energy will reemerge as I continue to add markings and layers.   I will allow this creative flow to move outward until it has run dry – then guess what?  I move on to my next adventure.

Is it ok to have multiple creative personalities in your practice?

Some artists and critics will say – this shows amateurism and your audience can’t see a solid body of work.   Yes, I get it.  If you do the same thing over and over again, you will get really good at it.  But you can also get bored.   That feeling you once had becomes mechanical and predictable.    I need spontaneity; I need to create with feeling.  If I am just running through the same old motions, what’s the point?   I am constantly renewing myself – recharging that spirit within.  I can’t have one personality/feeling without the other.  Each one feeds each other’s soul – giving all of them the nourishment to add strength and confidence in whatever series I am working on in the moment.   I will experience the peak in this next series and return to my pastels, or my oils at some point.  This could be tomorrow or next month.  I am just allowing this current ride to take me on a new journey through my creative soul.

Want to see my first show of the year?  Click here for more info

My online courses will finally come to fruition after a long fight back from complete failure – stay tuned for more info.




A few ways for me (and you) to Make it Happen in 2017

Can you believe 2016 is done and over?   It seems as though this past year flew right past me.   Was I able to accomplish all of my goals?  Did I get lost a few times?  Did I stay on task 100% of the time?

The answer – NO!!!!!

As a creative staying organized and accomplishing goals can be difficult.   Your mind is running every which way but forward and ideas swirl throughout as though you on a rainbow journey through OZ.   I can’t hear myself think at times or I get in such a creative funk all creativity stops.   So how can I continue to make it happen in the new year?


  1.  Get Organized – I tried to organize my schedule using my smart phone but I am a visual and I like to write things down.   Needless to say, the smartphone just doesn’t work for me.  So I bought a nice fancy planner to write my plan, my schedule, my dreams and goals down.   The goal now is to open it up every AM and PM making a list of what I need to do, What I want to do and When I want to do it.

Starting today – this planner takes action

  1. Get Motivation – I love to read but it is hard to find the time.  I have tons of self-motivating books and fun books but they have collected a little bit of dust in 2016.   My goal – take a minimum of 20-30 minutes a day to stop and read.   Find motivation and guidance through others creativity.

Any good book recommendations?

  1. Get inspired – I always need to be close to the things that inspire me.  My goal – take regular creative field trips – a hike, a walk on the beach, a day trip to a scenic landscape.  One I need painting subjects and two these small trips provide constant inspiration to create.

I must make an appointment in my new 2017 planner to plan my first excursion

  1. Get Going – now that the new year has begun – it is now time to just get going and do it.  Here are a few ways to keep yourself on track:
  • check that planner every morning when you wake up and before bed.  Check off the areas that you have completed or accomplished and move those things to the next day top to this list for tomorrow
  • keep a diary/sketchbook.  Document your daily journey through your words and/or art.   Look back on occasion to see where you have been and where you are going.
  • schedule a meeting with yourself.  Keep yourself on track with your goals and “to dos”   Discuss with yourself what is and what is not getting done.
  • find a partner to keep you accountable and schedule a monthly meeting with them.   Sometimes it helps when an outsider tells you like it is.   They will ask you questions, play devil’s advocate and help keep you on track to get things done.
  • take your creative field trips.   Make sure you have fun!   Invigorate and nourish that creative soul by experience those things that make you happy and inspire you.   It could be nothing at all too.

Let me share some goals I have:

  • to blog consistently  – weekly
  • to provide weekly video instruction on my creative process and journey
  • to create, create and create more
  • to roll out and launch my online Creative Soul courses – finally
  • to sell more art
  • to give back more and share more of my passion with all of you


I know these are big goals that I failed to complete last year. But failed is not a bad thing – I still have today, tomorrow and the next day to keep at it.

So make it happen this year!   Set out to be amazing and remember you are where you need to be right now – trust the process as you move yourself forward in this new year.



p.s. you notice my list is all #1 – this is not a typo because every item on my list is a priority – they are ALL important and deserve to be #1.

Give the Gift of Art and Spread Happiness this Season


Share Art and creates happiness!

Through December, I will be posting small affordable masterpieces for sale.  Purchase for the special friend  or give to yourself (we always seem to forget about us)   Free shipping and gift wrap is available to make your life easier.   These pieces were made with happiness and positivity and my goal is to spread this out for all to see and experience.


Here are today’s artful additions:

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Are You Willing to Pull Out the Weeds so that the Flowers Can Grow

You need to pull out the weeds so that the flowers can grow.   This can be an arduous task in itself.  But, do you have the patience and inner strength to get through the tough stuff to realize your goal and passion?  Do you stress so much on the things that get your down during this process that the end result becomes lackluster and noneventful?

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Are you willing to be passed over and rejected?  Are you willing to fail and lose money?  Are you willing to deal with the lousy side effects of pursuing your passion?

If you said yes to all of these questions, you are well on your way to following the path to your inner passion.  It takes a lot of hardcore pressure to stay in the game.  You have to want it so badly that all of the negative stuff just doesn’t matter.   Well, it matters, but it doesn’t allow your inner self to get in the way.   Yes, you will cry, yell, scream, worry, have unlimited anxiety, but you will take a breath, brush the dirt off your shoulder and carry on.   You will shed a tear, but those tears will be your battle cry to get up and do it again until it becomes a success.

If you said no, maybe you need to revisit what got you here in the first place.  Is this passion thing what you were looking for or are you on the wrong track.   Because, if what you love so much causes such pain; when you get to the end result you feel numb; is it worth everything you put into it?

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This passion thing: leaving my safe and comfortable career to pursue my creative soul has been no easy task.  I have lost money, I have been rejected, and I have failed too many times to count.   But I truly love what I do and enjoy what happens when small pockets of happiness and success come my way.   It is worth all of the struggle when I can teach someone to find their passion and creative self.   So yes I am willing to walk through the crap to get there because if I can touch one person along the way and help them, it is all worth it.

So think clearly about your goals and dig deep inside to see how far you are willing to take yourself.  What is your risk tolerance?  Can you endure the pain of failure or will you let it consume you?  If you find yourself complaining about the very thing you love to do, think about what you think you love to do.   Are you truly willing to step through all of the crap to find success?